April 2011Monthly Archives
I had a wave of home sickness yesterday where I really missed Donnie and our old house. It still doesn’t seem real. Bob and Jimmy closed up the cottage and I was glad because it just wasn’t for me this summer. I’m hoping that I will get back on track by next summer so that … Continue Reading
I’m moving forward and writing my book. My hope is that every widow will be able to see herself in the stories and know that she is not alone. I have to keep encouraging myself that I can do this because I get fearful and unmotivated. I just keep thinking about all the widows that … Continue Reading
It’s been one year and I’ve gotten pass that first Christmas and all the other holidays but I feel just as sad and lonely. I went up to the grave site by myself. I just didn’t want to talk to anyone today.
Being busy doesn’t stop me from thinking of Donnie. At the oddest time a feeling of deep sadness suddenly comes across me and I just want to cry. I wish I had him back so I could tell him how much I really loved him. I didn’t really appreciate how much love he gave me. … Continue Reading
Today I was being lazy and was drifting in and out of sleep. At 9:20 I heard an odd sound like a phone ringing. I picked up the phone and heard Donnie as clear as anything. He said “It’s OK, I’m OK.” I was half asleep and thought something had happened to him at work. … Continue Reading
Well, Angela and I made it through our first Christmas without Donnie. Angela did me a stocking and bought me gifts from Santa. She worked Christmas Eve till 11:00 and when she got home we opened up one present each. We went to Nathan’s and Andrea’s for turkey supper in their first home. I went … Continue Reading
On Tuesday September 4th, Donnie was in the hospital and they told him about the cancer. On Tuesday September 11th, Donnie and I got up early to get ready for Donnie’s doctor appointment at 7:00. Donnie was sitting at the kitchen table while I was in the bedroom getting ready when I heard him fall … Continue Reading
It’s time I wrote down what has happened in the last few months. Friday, August 31st we were at the cottage and the doctor called about Donnie’s tests. I took the call because Donnie was out and he told me that Donnie had lung and liver cancer and it didn’t look good. He wanted Donnie … Continue Reading
Donnie and I went to Angela’s graduation for her Licensed Practical Nurse (LPN). We are so proud of her and you should have seen Donnie. He stood up and whistled and clapped like crazy when she crossed the stage to get her diploma.
I got a tattoo on my shoulder. It represents “love, faith and laughter” and Angela got a flower on the top of her foot. I always wanted a tattoo so I promised Angela I would get one with her on my 50th birthday. Donnie tells me I’m crazy but I know he thinks it’s a … Continue Reading