Recent loss of my husband
My husband could make an ordinary day extraordinary. We recently moved to Arkansas for my job and were loving the outdoors (hiking, kayaking, & long walks). My husband had been sick for most of our marriage, but had been at his healthiest the last 6 months. I found him on the couch when I got home from work and it was hard to wake him up. When I did, he said he was just tired and needed to sleep. He would go through periods of exhaustion. He slept on the couch that night and I covered him up. The next morning, I was singing his name and a wake up song but he wouldn’t wake up. He passed awa 4 days later on December 15, 2017.
I am blessed to be surrounded by friends and family. My boss has been amazing. I’m not typicaly an emotional person; However, I just can’t stop crying. I miss his smile and hugs. We are in our 30s and had an appointment for the fertility doctor this past week. It was hard to make that call to cancel.
I’m not sure what I’m looking for, I just have this high need to tell his stories and to find some peace. I keep looking at the stages of grief and so far i have just experienced the sadness.
I’m so sorry about your loss. Stages of grief is an old way of thinking and recently it’s been more understood that grief is a personal journey that cannot be neatly done in stages.
Grief isn’t tidy - it’s messy, with lots of emotional ups and downs. There is no set time frame as everyone is different, just like our marriages were different.
Let yourself grieve and honour your memories. Don’t expect too much from your broken heart - it needs time to heal. Take care. Mary Francis
I'm so sorry. I understand how you feel. Grief is a long journey, and it's so unpredictable. Everyone's journey is different, time does help. it's been 2 and a half years for me, and I still have days when I cry. But I'm also finding that I have more and more times when I can smile instead of cry when I think of my husband. And that's a good thing. It's a difficult journey.