I don't feel whole anymore
My husband, Steve, passed away on January 1st of 2017. I am still trying to figure out what "normal" is for me now. I was so proud of the relationship that we built over 37 years together. We raised three daughters and have 8 beautiful grandchildren. 58 is too young to die. We had the best years ahead of us. My sweet husband endured a long battle with Multiple Sclerosis so I had gone from his partner in crime to his caregiver over the years but our love never changed... it only deepened. I wanted to find a place where others would understand. I am feeling like I am the person in the room that everyone is worried about or they don't know if something they say will offend me. I am a very positive upbeat person and it's hard for others to understand that they will not be seeing me fall apart. To me, that would be harder than keeping it together. I have my moments alone, but I am not one to show emotion easily in public. I am hoping to be able to listen to other's stories and share mine in a comfortable safe place. I think it will be good for me. I look forward to chatting with you all!
Tina and GailyGail,
My heart goes out to you both. My husband Scott passed away 8 days ago after a 3-week battle with pancreatic cancer. I'm still trying to process the diagnosis, let alone the fact that he is gone. It's still such a shock, but I know the outcome wasn't going to be good and there would be grueling treatments to endure. I'm telling myself that he was in more control and wanted a quick exit once the diagnosis was confirmed. He was worried about me, not about himself. I'm grateful he didn't suffer long. We didn't have children, so my house feels very empty and sad. I'm 50, he was 49.
We definitely have to help each other on our journeys. Please reach out if you need to connect.