I’ve been working hard so all I could think about was having a lazy Saturday all to myself. I was going to sleep in, do a little housework, read and relax. No plans to go anywhere or do anything – a relaxing day was just what I wanted and needed.
But around noon I started getting depressed and sad. I can’t tell you how or why it started but it was just that lonely, empty feeling that another widow would know.
It happens when I stop being busy and have too much quiet time. Time to feel the loss, time to miss being part of a couple and time to miss being loved. I stopped to let the sadness have it’s time but I have no time for depression. If depression gets a chance to come in – it would make itself at home and I would never get rid of it.
So I cooked a late lunch and cleaned out some closets to get ready for the winter. I always do better when I’m busy and I’ve come to realize that is the way I handle it best. A little relaxing time but not too much – that is what works for me.