My husband died in March. The hardest part for me are the happy memories of him and the things we did together. I always feel the saddest. Sometimes I can look at pictures and I'm okay but I don't think I can watch a video of him. I don't even want to try. Does anyone else feel the same?
Take your time and if you are not ready to watch a video of him than don't force it.
I didn't watch our home movies until the 3 year mark and even so it was hard. I don't think watching him will ever be easy, but it is a blessing to still have them to watch.