What if you stopped trying to fix yourself and just let your deepest self emerge?  Decide what you want to change, than draw a time line to get it done. Break down the process into steps that will allow you to integrate what you learn as you move forward.  It's quite possible to leave your home for a walk in the early morning air and return a different person - refreshed and renewed. Do you have people in your life that are always negative?  Always ready to find fault and bad mouth everyone that crosses their path?  The question is what to do with them at your next family get together. There is a technique called "Do Not Respond" - don't answer, give a head nod or in anyway get drawn into their  negative talk.  For more out-of-control situations, pretend not to hear, excuse yourself and walk away. Another year, another chance to ask yourself if you're really where you want to be. Please take this opportunity to view the sample pages or download my free guide on "Healthy Relationships"  . Link: https://sisterhoodofwidows.com/a-guide-to-our-relationships/